The Beauty of A Storm…

 Some people are put on earth to help guide us to finding our wings…because they were already born with theirs. Life has been anything but easy for me but I wouldn’t change anything even if I had the chance to. I was born with my wings and with a warrior state of mind. I’m what society calls “different”  and what doctors call, “impossible.” I was born with a rare diagnosis known as Schizencephaly, I don’t like to be told what I can’t do, but most importantly—I’m just like you. 
​   Fear is a part of life but it doesn’t have to be. Instead of constantly worrying about what people have to say about you, why not spend time trying to be the person you aspire to be. People would rather live in the darkness of their own shadow rather than living in the unknown of the light. Of all the liars in our own world, sometimes the worst are our own fears. I spent my whole life being told what I can’t do by doctors and those moments have shaped me into who I am today. I owe the people in my life who believe in me, love me, and motivate me my whole world. 
  We all have a voice and it’s up to you on how you choose to use it. I never fully realized how much my disability has shaped my whole life until now. When I was young, doctors told me that I would never walk. I am proud to say that I’m a member of the cross country and tennis teams at school. Most people would consider me to be absolutely insane if I told them that I had the whole idea of life figured out at eighteen years old. You can vote at eighteen, be drafted into the military at eighteen, drink at twenty-one, and retire by sixty-five. How old do you really have to be to understand the purpose of life? 
    There’s a saying that I always tell myself, “Sometimes you have to get lost before you can find yourself.” I also know that the more you are constantly looking for an answer, the less likely you are to find one. We like everything to be in black and white, its inevitable, but let the answers find you. You will learn more once you stop chasing and just experience life as it comes to you. The best and most thrilling experiences I’ve had are when I just let life happen. When will you start living?
  Every day your patience will be tested and you will get frustrated. Some days will definitely hurt way more than others but you have to move on from what has already happened and realize that the people and things around you are worth remembering and appreciating. People can impact your life in ways that you would never think of.
  From everything that I’ve gone through I know that there will always be something in the world that will try to knock you down and you have to tune them out. We all have a story that’s worth telling the world and we spend every moment of life trying to tell it. Once you stop fearing the storm and all of the damage that comes with it is when you’ll see the true beauty of it. The same thing goes for my storm, even if you feel scared and hopeless as you live through the story. The only difference is that every day I CHOOSE to see the beauty in my storm. After all, Schizencephaly is who I am and will always be a part of me…but it DOES NOT define me.

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